The ramblings of a crazy person

So I have been thinking about a bunch of random stuff lately. So we have this puppy her name is Jewel and I swear she is the dumbest puppy on the face of the earth sometimes. today she looked at me and squatted and peed on my bathroom floor. Then got up and ran away from it because she knew she was going to be punished. Then when I put her in the backyard for punishment she slid out of the hole under the fence that our other dog Annie had dug and instead of roaming the neighborhood she went to the front door luckily for her that made me a little happier than I would have been. Any way the past week I have been sick and she has been doing this a lot. I have been thinking to myself how am I going to keep a baby alive am I crazy for wanting one???? but then I'm like that is a crazy thought a baby wont be moving that fast for at least a year and once you hit a year your pretty much home free right? but at the same time babies are so expensive! you can't just throw them out side to poop and pee you have to buy diapers and stuff.

Then she does cute stuff like play with Annie, explore, and sleep, and then I think I can do this its not that bad. I can have a baby they are cute and sleep, and they coo and eventually they smile and laugh with you and at you. You get this little person who will love you unconditionally at least for a few years any way.

Then I have been having major pain break throughs with my cysts on my ovaries and wonder how long I can last being off of birth control or not being pregnant. All of our children will pretty much be planned unless our first baby totally and completely negates the effects of my poly-cystic ovarian syndrome. I have been in so much pain that some nights I just rock and weep my self to sleep.

But only 1 more week till we can start trying and hopefully I will be a fertile myrtle!

Since We have been married....

We have been married 3 months as of today! It has been a long hard 3 months, but 3 months of love and partnership. For the first 2.5 months we lived in Lapoint 30 miles away from his job in a trailor in his grandparents back yard, then we recently moved into our house in Vernal only about 2 miles from his job. So that has been a good thing!

We have also had a pregnancy "scare" so to say, we were not sure for about 3 weeks but after 2 tests turned out negative, and after the second test which was a blood test turned out negative we were both disappointed even though before we got the results we were not really sure that we wanted it to be positive. So we decided to take out my faulty birth control and start trying to have kids.

We also decided that we needed another dog to keep our little doggie Annie company. So we bought a puppy and named her Jewel. We have had her for about a week now and she is doing really well at potty training!

We have also been working in the Uintah Basin on the Morgan Philpot and Mike Lee Campaigns. Tons of fun but stressful too!

joy and frusteration

So we got a new puppy we named her Jewel, she is a cute Lab blue tick mix! She is not very good at making it out side to go potty so that is frusterating!

then Kansas and I just moved into out own home! then his hours got cut at work because they are retarted!

ok so I am done ranting!

Continuing the background

So We started going on dates and Kansas called me his girlfriend after about a week and a half. Kansas loves to act and sing so he participates in the Out Law Trail theater every summer.I started going to play practice because it was the only way I got to see him. Less than 3 months into our relationship we started talking about marriage, we hadn't made a decision on whether or not to get married before I met his family. First I met Dakota his brother and Kassandra his sister in law and their kids Hazel and Jaiten. I also met Daniel his best bud and basically adopted brother. This was in the end of June. Kassandra liked me. That was in the end of June. Then I met Tiffany his oldest sister and her Husband Ben and their kids Malachi, Mahonri, Melanie, and Emma. Then a few days later I met his mother Penny, his father Shane, his younger sister Shasta, and His youngest sister Trisha. They all came out to see Kansas in his play. After the play was over his parents and I were talking and they asked me how serious we were and I told them that we were serious but just dating for now. The next day Kansas' mom, dad, and younger sisters left to go to Navoo Illinois, they were goign to come back through and drop Shasta off to stay after their trip.

Kansas then asked me that if he asked me to marry him what would I say and I said that I would say yes. Then 3 days later after the final performance of the play Kansas asked me if I thought it would have been awesome if he pulled me on stage and proposed to me and I was like no I would have said no, he asked why and I told him that I hate public proposals. He then pushed me up against his car and said will you marry me? and I started laughing and asked if he was serious. He replied yes, Will you marry me? and I said yes, I love you. That night when we got to my place we went online and started looking at rings and we asked Kassandra where her and Dakota got their rings and told he not to tell anyone, we wanted to tell his parents when they came back to town.

In a few days his parents were back in town and we were all at dinner and his parents asked us so we heard you are engaged? Kansas was like did Kassandra tell you? because we wanted to tell you ourselves tonight! They said yes and congratulations.

We had been dating for over a year by the time we got married which in the mormon world is unheard of practically.

And Now we have been married for about 2 and a half months and have decided to start a family.

So a Little Background....

So Kansas and I met at a friends house while I was dating/ engaged to another guy so I didn't really pay attention to him except I thought He was cute and nice. Then the guy I was engaged to and I broke up and I decided that I didn't want to date for a while. then I started to really like Kansas and knew we just had to go on a date if he would ever notice my shameless flirting!!!

He went on a date with one of my best friends, who only liked him as a friend. Then about a week later we were at a bonfire and I was really pissed off because of some crap that my Ex had done, Kansas came over and asked what was up, I told him and he was like yeah that guy is a douche. We started out on opposite sides of the couch then slowly I made it down to his side,as we talked the night away. it was pretty clod so I asked if we could move the couch closer to the fire and he said you know you could just get a bit closer and cuddle up to me. So I did. Then the next day we went bowling together for his cousin Shane's Birthday, then went back to Shane's for a movie and ended up making out after everyone had fallen asleep. ( Kansas was the first guy I kissed with out actually being in a relation ship first so I freeked out for the next couple weeks, but continued to kiss him, LOL)

Married!

We are at the beginning of our life together. we were married on July 23 2010. and have since acquired our own home and have decided to start a family. We move in to our new home tomorrow and cant wait to finally be settled in together in our own place. We are both looking for new jobs but I guess we will just have to wait and see on that. well this is all for tonight. More tomorrow.